okay so in recent times I've been wondering why I no longer want to draw as much as I did before. I find it very hard to get motivated and stay that way. If it's a big painting I usually lose sight and give up half way. Or if I do finish a painting I dislike it to the point I don't want to share it.. whether or not its 'good'.
basically I don't find art enjoyable anymore and I don't know what to do because it's my strongest skill.
Recently my heart has been elsewhere, more specifically getting a band together and writing music. Weird fact, I sing and write lyrics aha. This is the first time I've mentioned it. It's also the first thing in a while I've been excited about and it's bittersweet. Alongside drawing, I've always enjoyed writing poetry from a very young age. I never thought I could turn it into songs and music but it's damn fun.
I'm not sure where this leaves me. I don't want to give up art entirely because I've been doing it for so long and over the years it's gotten positive reactions, which I am VERY grateful for.. .. but I can't do it without feeling forced no matter how much time I take.
Music, on the other hand, is exciting and encourages me to open up. It demands I leave my room and entertain a large audience.
okay I didn't think of a conclusion either. I'm just voicing my thoughts.
Can anyone relate?
Listening to: Marmozets